Assalamualaikum.
Hai. It's been few days since my bad day. Still, I can't get rid of that thing. Been thinking about it all the time. It's hard, though.
*wah2..speaking kau izni.. haha..k2, sambung dlm Bm plak..eheh
Aq rasa ni la first time aq rasa worst sungguh pasal result sejak2 masuk U ni. Maybe sbb aq berharap sangat aq dpt lpas "x.00" tu kot.
Then, bila fikir2 balik. It's start with me. Kalau aq buat dengan bersungguh2 dulu, maybe my result would be better. Not saying I'll get 4 flat. Tapi at least naik dari sem lepas. It start with 'KALAU'.
AND. Bila kenang2 zaman sem lepas tu, memang asyik mengutuk diri sendiri je. Sebab banyak masa terbuang. Banyak masa tak diluangkan lebih kepadaNya, actually.
*ok.xpayah nak bajet alim. mesti korg fikir macam tu kan? eheh. joking
Banyak masa aq buat benda2 yang tak sepatutnya aq buat as long as I've been called 'STUDENT'. Lain org suruh buat, lain yang aq buat. Orang study, aq main2. Movies la, Running Man la *tak pasal2 RM kene..eheh Lagu la. Haihh..Tu tak termasuk termenung je, tidur je bila pantang ada masa. Meja dah siap ada utk study, sibuk nak study ats katil. Kan dah. Hah! Tambah dengan sibuk ngumpat org dlm hati. Bukan ngumpat sangat la sbnrnya, lebih pada tak puas hati dgn plkuan sstgh org. Pastu sibuk fikir 'I'm better than them.' 'At least aq tak macam kau'.'Cubalah jangan macam tu'. Dan macam22 lagi.
THEN.
I came up with an idea. Nope. IDEAS, actually.
Aq decide nak berubah. Ubah cara aq. Ubah style blaja. Ubah style hidup. Repair time management. And maybe people will think I'm weirdo, nerdie, noob whatever it called la to someone *me that will change for a better. For her dreams. For her life. For her deen. In sha Allah.
TAPI.
Boleh ke? Haha. Perkataan 'tapi' tu tk patut ade kan? Sebab, bila ada, dia akan buat otak jd negtif. So, segala benda yang kita plan, akan tergendala. Some will run, tapi *tengok tapi lagi maybe tak seaktif or tak seperti yang kita bayangkan.
Tak semua 'tapi' akan buat kita fikir negatif kan? Some will make u be positive. Like, from -ve to +ve. 'Bleh ke aq buat ni TAPI kalau tk cuba taktau kan?' Things like that, happen to us. All the time.
*dah apa kau merepek ni izni...-.-"
So, in the end, aq dah pon buat plan, list yang aq akan buat naik sem ni. Even before naik pon dah nak buat. Sebab org kate tk baik tgguhkn bnde baik kan? :)
FIGHTING! *sambil muka kerut2 dahi
Assalamualaikum. :)