Wednesday 27 February 2013

Tuesday 19 February 2013

Last.

Assalamualaikum.

Hai. It's been few days since my bad day. Still, I can't get rid of that thing. Been thinking about it all the time. It's hard, though. 

*wah2..speaking kau izni.. haha..k2, sambung dlm Bm plak..eheh

Aq rasa ni la first time aq rasa worst sungguh pasal result sejak2 masuk U ni. Maybe sbb aq berharap sangat  aq dpt lpas "x.00" tu kot. 

Then, bila fikir2 balik. It's start with me. Kalau aq buat dengan bersungguh2 dulu, maybe my result would be better. Not saying I'll get 4 flat. Tapi at least naik dari sem lepas. It start with 'KALAU'.

AND. Bila kenang2 zaman sem lepas tu, memang asyik mengutuk diri sendiri je. Sebab banyak masa terbuang. Banyak masa tak diluangkan lebih kepadaNya, actually. 

*ok.xpayah nak bajet alim. mesti korg fikir macam tu kan? eheh. joking

Banyak masa aq buat benda2 yang tak sepatutnya aq buat as long as I've been called 'STUDENT'. Lain org suruh buat, lain yang aq buat. Orang study, aq main2. Movies la, Running Man la *tak pasal2 RM kene..eheh Lagu la. Haihh..Tu tak termasuk termenung je, tidur je bila pantang ada masa. Meja dah siap ada utk study, sibuk nak study ats katil. Kan dah. Hah! Tambah dengan sibuk ngumpat org dlm hati. Bukan ngumpat sangat la sbnrnya, lebih pada tak puas hati dgn plkuan sstgh org. Pastu sibuk fikir 'I'm better than them.' 'At least aq tak macam kau'.'Cubalah jangan macam tu'. Dan macam22 lagi.

THEN.

I came up with an idea. Nope. IDEAS, actually.

Aq decide nak berubah. Ubah cara aq. Ubah style blaja. Ubah style hidup. Repair time management. And maybe people will think I'm weirdo, nerdie, noob whatever it called la to someone *me that will change for a better. For her dreams. For her life. For her deen. In sha Allah.   

TAPI. 

Boleh ke? Haha. Perkataan 'tapi' tu tk patut ade kan? Sebab, bila ada, dia akan buat otak jd negtif. So, segala benda yang kita plan, akan tergendala. Some will run, tapi *tengok tapi lagi maybe tak seaktif or tak seperti yang kita bayangkan. 

Tak semua 'tapi' akan buat kita fikir negatif kan? Some will make u be positive. Like, from -ve to +ve. 'Bleh ke aq buat ni TAPI kalau tk cuba taktau kan?' Things like that, happen to us. All the time. 

*dah apa kau merepek ni izni...-.-"

So, in the end, aq dah pon buat plan, list yang aq akan buat naik sem ni. Even before naik pon dah nak buat. Sebab org kate tk baik tgguhkn bnde baik kan? :)


FIGHTING! *sambil muka kerut2 dahi

Assalamualaikum. :)

Saturday 16 February 2013

.

Assalamualaikum.

Hokeh. Result dah keluar. Semalam. N baru cek ari ni.

Nak tahu lah tu aq dpat bape...Tetttt...xde maknanya aq nak post kat sini de. BUT.

DISSAPOINTED.

That's the word. Dah try. Dah usaha. Dah tawakkal. Dah jugak fikir "Lepas x.00 pon ok la." Sebab tengokkan markah kuiz, test, assgmnt yg ok je. BUT.

Again.

Allah 
              knows
everything.

Maybe aq study bukn kerana Dia. Mungkin aq belajar sebab nak naikkn pointer semata2. Heh. Serves me right, huh? Kalau dah niat tu tak betol, everything will not go the way u want it.

Sedih. Sangat. 
Sebab rasa semua ok. 
Maybe rasa over confident. 
Entah.

Speechless. BUT. 

My heart said

"TRY HARDER. 
BELIEVE 
           IN 
HIM."

Wish me luck for the next, guys. ;)

#acanodennakbagitaumakni..haihhh

Sunday 3 February 2013

:)

Assalamualaikum.

Happy birthday dude. May Allah bless. :)



#ok..sapa2 kenal..senyap! Amaran! Haha